When I start feeling like this, the first thing I wonder is whether it is just the product of autosuggestion. I look at the calendar, it is August, life is not going smoothly, but I can't complain... well, I am going to get depressed. This, in any case, could be applicable to the latest years, in which I've been suspecting even more that something very terrible happened in this same month, but in 1942. Before, I used to get depressed and that was all, I didn't suspect anything. But back then the only reasons I blamed for feeling like that were hormones, the end of the summer, fewer light hours, the approaching of a course more filled with concerns... Now, as I have already noticed a year ago, and the year before, I know it's not a coincidence I always feel like this by this time of the year. For some reason, anniversaries play dirty tricks on us reincarnationists.
I have been observing this several consecutive years, of course without taking into account all my previous life, in which I had no memories from other lives, but I was suffering of a severe depression of unknown origin that grew stronger depending on the time of the year. Now things have changed. Now not only I do know the origin, but I also know it's in August when it seems something drags me irremediably to the abyss. To be exact, I feel dead. The sun can shine out there and there can be hundreds of holidaymakers enjoying their vacation, but to me everything feels like a slow agony, a passing of days that have lost their reason for being. The will to live abandons me.
When I start feeling like this, the first thing I wonder is whether it is just the product of autosuggestion. I look at the calendar, it is August, life is not going smoothly, but I can't complain... well, I am going to get depressed. This, in any case, could be applicable to the latest years, in which I've been suspecting even more that something very terrible happened in this same month, but in 1942. Before, I used to get depressed and that was all, I didn't suspect anything. But back then the only reasons I blamed for feeling like that were hormones, the end of the summer, fewer light hours, the approaching of a course more filled with concerns... Now, as I have already noticed a year ago, and the year before, I know it's not a coincidence I always feel like this by this time of the year. For some reason, anniversaries play dirty tricks on us reincarnationists.
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I can't deny that since I started to write this blog, I am concerned about the credibility of what I tell here. But I have reached the conclusion I can't fight against it. It happens not only in reincarnation, but also in near-death experiences, in dreams about deceased persons, in people who have premonitions, even in witnesses of U.F.O. sightings. You tell your experience. Some might be more convincing than others: undoubtedly claiming you were John F. Kennedy (or any other famous person) is not the same than claiming you were Francisco Pérez, a casualty in the Spanish Civil War. But ultimately, it just one more testimony. The listener believes it or not. No matter how truthful you are and how many proof (verifications) you show, they can always think you are making it all up.
On the other hand, skeptic readers won't reach here. I very much doubt recalcitrant skeptics search for reincarnation blogs, and even if they existed, nothing I can tell them could change their skepticism, so in the end I don't have to worry about the credibility of my testimony. However, it worries me because it is not that I am convinced of the reality of reincarnation. It is that I know is a real and universal phenomenon. O.K., I might be wrong, or I could even be misinterpreting my experiences and it turns out I don't have past lives, but they are simultaneous lives, as some say (hypothesis I don't share, by the way). But there is no doubt consciousness survives death, and even if we only speak about that, those are big words. It is a conviction that can't be remain in silence. |
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