Some time, when I wasn’t with them, disgrace occurs… I don’t know how we found out. But it surely was quite an ugly affair, as since Robert’s death, everything changed for the worse.
«I suddenly saw myself visiting my brother Robert’s grave, I lay a bouquet of flowers on it. The slab is wooden. First I am squatting, but as I spend a lot of time there, I end up sitting on the ground, wondering how he died and why Johnson torments himself so much since then. At that point I see the two of them together, Johnson with a dark coat to his feet and a double-barreled shotgun, too impetuous, my father warns them to leave the Indians alone, to pay heed to a war veteran like he is, but for some reason they got peeved with the Indians and have their fights with them. I think I am younger at that moment and I don’t accompany them. I don’t know how this all ends.
(Regression 21-4-2012.)