Always accompanied by a great sadness, I see how we are climbing up a quite steep hillside. I am walking alone, with the staff and no burden or maybe some kind of light basket I carry on my shoulder. I get tired easily, my bones hurt, it is cold. My shoes are simple sandals, similar to espadrilles, I would say. At the beginning there is a lot of light, but there are dark clouds getting near. The way is not too wide, the vegetation is scarce, like weeds at the sides of the road, but in general it is light-colored earth and stones. Scattered, I see a child, a woman, a mule... a cart with provisions and an old man or woman that can't walk.
At the end, I tried to place myself where the archway is and keep walking to see what there is beyond. I saw my second son waiting for me, he takes me by the arm and directs me inside, and then what I see is like a quadrangular enclosure, but irregular, with high walls. We settle where we can, with the commodities in a corner, places where we can make fire in another corner...
On December 26th, 2017, I did a new regression to try and find out more about my Cathar life. This is what came to me:
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My Cathar life is right now very far from my mind, but I think I owe the reader a continuation of the narrative thread I was following when I went to visit Auschwitz exhibition. I left it in the moment in which I began to research seriously about Cathars, thanks to the books by various authors that a forum member lent me. As surely the readers don't remember, I invite them to go back and re-read my last entry in this respect.
I started off with La herejía cátara, by Jesús Ávila Granados, book I previously mentioned because it was the one that made me realize a great part of my current thought, especially that related to religion, is very similar to the teachings of Cathars. But the book itself didn't seem to me very impressive. It does touch on Montségur and what happened there, so at least it served me to rule out the possibility I had died in that fortress. My memories didn't match anything. I never spoke of stakes, but beheadings. Perhaps, the most striking part of this part of my research was the discovery of the main Cathar mandates. I couldn't believe nowadays I keep agreeing with most of them: |
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