Thing is, after the initial session I described in the blog’ last entry, my therapist did two sessions more, at night, while I was sleeping, on December 13th and December 20th. As usual in me, I didn’t notice anything special, except I slept specially well the two nights. I think after the second one I did notice a considerable reduction of my anxiety level. On the mornings I use to get up a bit nervous, especially if I have to do something like going to the dentist’s or the repair shop or any other errand. However, since then on, I started getting up very relaxed, without a trace of concern for anything. At the beginning I didn’t blame it on the LNT, after all I also do a lot of yoga and I keep meditating on a regular basis.
Then the holidays came, a time that upsets me a lot. This year it has been clear that it is the end of a cycle for me and many things are dying in my life, so this added up to my usual Christmas annoyance. On December 26th I enjoyed learning to train with a katana, undoubtedly it was the best moment of the festive season. But possibly due to sudden changes of temperature, when the chimney was lighted up in the evenings, the 27th, back in my residence, I started feeling a sore throat. Two or days later, I suffered a brief episode of fever at night. And after that, a serious bronchitis that lasted at least two weeks, so I stopped doing yoga and had a rest. In the meanwhile, the oil boiler broke down and I ended up arguing and yelling to my mum, unable to do anything else than watching TV. For the first time in months she could get me out of my center and all that depressed me quite a bit. Nothing of all this is surprising as the last year of my life has not been easy at all and it is strange I didn’t explode before.